could i ?




if i pushed myself, could i do it ?

agnes martin, eva hesse, and louise bourgeois.

my 3 favorite artists of all time. since the first moment i saw each of their art, i have been stunned. i look at their art, and i feel feelings no other art has made me feel. agnes' paintings have the happiness that is nowhere to be found in this world. the sculptures and drawings of eva and louise leave me with the most uncomfortable yet familiar feeling. makes me sick to my guts, but i recognize this feeling, this overwhelming, suffocating eeriness.

i want to make art that is both ugly and beautiful. both uncomfortable yet familiar. but could i really do it? it's not the circumstances surrounding me, but my own doubts and fears that lock me up and hold me.